Good days ahead!

Been having a really really bad mood these past few days. With all the inner conflicts and all the thoughts... I'd tried really hard to resolve all these conflicts, but it ended up getting even worse. Feel so sorry for those who were affected by my awful mood. And thank you so much for the effort to try to confort me. Paiseh ah. Promise that this is not gonna happen again :) Good days ahead folks!

Thinking of you in a silent night

I remember your beautiful smile,
your dark brown peaceful eyes,
your dark curly hair,
your voice,
your clothes, your favorite same clothes which you liked to wear most of the time, it was brown in colour with some orange colour curve lines on it, or a black colour clothe with scattered yellow flowers,
your plain black colour trousers which you always wear,
and also the shape of your hands (which I don't know why am I imaging, it's just you i guess)...

I remember the day when I actually removed all the dragon eye fruits' seeds and shells, slowly fed you and placed into your mouth one by one, it was the very first time and also the last, as if i knew something was gonna happen...
You said you wished you could watch me till the day when I graduated, until I got married, and perhaps be a doctor to find for the cure... Although I knew I would not be a doctor, but there were chances that I might be a psychologist instead (Hope so)...

I Miss your sweet and bright smile.
Miss your warm hand when you hold me...
Miss the food that you cooked, especially your special fried noodles, or even the food you bought from somewhere else, just any store.
Miss those days when three of us sat in front of the television and watched WWF together.
Sometimes we watched cartoons too. Well, kids.
Miss those time when you were acting like a kid, meanwhile played toys with us.
Miss those days when you brought us to participate in drawing contests, and you were always there, waiting for us until the end of the competitions.
Miss those days when we went to Tioman together, swimming in the wonderful sea, sitting on the sand watching people, boats or craps, eating nice and delicious sea food, and we were actually spending time together. And you are pretty good at swimming too, haha. By the way, i like your awesome "punching style" which you used to do, miss them a lot too.
Miss those songs that you sang to us
Miss seeing your shadow from your back too...

All the supports that you always give.
All the loveliness, kindness, patience and positive thoughts that you showed.
All the things you did that made us smile, made us laugh together.
All the gossips that we (indicated those 'adults') used to tell, I'm a listener, for all the time.
All the things that you taught us....
Whatever we wanted, you will not hesitate for even a second to fulfill our wishes (if possible).

Hope you are here.
All I can say is that I do really miss you, always do.
How are you up there? Should be doing good, right? :D
By the way, could your little dumb granddaughter who knows only sleeping and eating make an appointment with you tonight? Perhaps we could meet somewhere somehow in my dream? Will take it as 'yes' then. :) 'Cause I have lots and lots of things to tell you...

遇见你

要不是当初选择这间大学，要不是选择攻读这科目，要不是选择七月份的课程，要不是。。。就不会遇见你们。人生就是这么奇妙，总得在一定的地点，一定的时间，才能与其相遇，缺一不可。这，就是缘分。
自从认识了这帮朋友，事情开始变得稍微不一样。当初看不到的，如今看透了不少。从一个不太会说话，有点自闭的人儿，渐渐开始学会主动沟通，也算是个好的开 始吧。还记得，刚开始踏入这片土地所认识的第一位“陌生人”。现在回想，也不知从哪来的勇气，我竟然会，居然敢跨出第一步，上前敲门。原想约她去吃晚餐， 结果发现她出去与家人享受晚餐去了，哈哈，时机不对嘛。咱们偶尔空暇时，都会找上门去，在其房间晃晃脚，聊聊天，听听歌。即使是不说话，各自忙着各自的活 动，在同一间房间里，也不会感到尴尬，反之有一种温馨的感觉。咱俩就这样渐渐熟悉起来。她是一个很好的朋友，上回收到一则贴心短讯，说真的，确实是有被 感动到。不只这次，有好几回也是如此，偶尔还会对我嘘寒问暖，真感动。有时瞧见她写博客，当内容里有提及我时，心里难免有说不出的喜悦。至少让我知道，原来我也有存在感，哈哈哈哈(是不好笑，没错）。话说，她很会唱歌，会弹钢琴(超棒)，会游泳，还有很多很多的优点，这么好的女生哪里找，还不快行动就走宝咯。只能说听她唱歌绝对是人生一 大享受，每一次我都是很用心的在倾听着这美妙的旋律。祝福她能有一天美梦成真。依然相信着她是行的！真的！
说到音乐，咱们这一家完全是可以组成一组音乐队了呢。有人会歌唱，有的会弹钢琴，有的会玩吉他，有的会拉小提琴，还有的会打鼓。我这个音乐白痴还是面壁思 过好了，阿哈。光说和我“同房共处”的这位朋友，三个字解释一切-她超强。不但很会唱歌，会弹钢琴，语言能力超强，成绩好之外，说到底，她就是厉害。基本 上她说二，没人敢说一，不知为什么，她就是让人有这样的感觉，哈哈。她真的很会模仿声音，不同人，不同的语言，不同的音调，都难不倒她。她还很会演戏呢， 常常面不改色的继续伴演下去。虽然咱俩有很多相似的地方，可是很多时候我都发现自己有许多不及她的地方。刚刚听她演奏，感觉很舒服，身心平静，顿时烦恼全抛在 脑袋后面，甚至忘了自己是谁。她的歌声有一股沁透人心的力量，文中提到的前者也是如此，呵呵。照我看，她还蛮适合做一份有关心理系的行业，最好也有与音乐 有关，因为她真的很有才华（纯粹个人意见）。
接下来这位少爷，他也是和音乐有关(对我而言)！他也会弹钢琴，也会歌唱，成绩也很好，富有责任感。只是不知怎么搞的，最近都没什么时间观念，上课前三十 分钟才起床，然后就匆匆忙忙，嘴里含着一块饼干，上学去。哈哈，真是的。不过今天有进步哦！稍微早起床。另外还有一个和他很相似的朋友，一个从小玩到大的玩伴。他是个很好玩，很好笑的朋友。 时不时就半路插入不相关的话题，结果就闹出笑场。他最经典部分就是活像个父亲，有时还蛮唠叨的。嘘，这里说这里散，哈哈。可是好好笑。而且这人老是想太 多，一个问题能让他想好久好久，完全就是超出了。当然这也未成是件坏事。有点可以肯定的是，当他在忙着思考时，你再怎么摇也摇不动他了，直到他找到答案为止。当然也少不了这位有趣的老兄，他是这家三大男生其一，会歌唱，会弹钢琴(三个字概括-没得顶)，沟通能力强(上次还连续几天聊天聊上好多个小时，敬佩敬佩)，很爱打羽毛球(不累不归家)，而且还很喜欢吃鸡蛋！不知怎么搞的，我发觉他还蛮喜欢(所谓的)欺负咱家大姐，相信是纯粹乐趣吧。
还有家中的长老！她给人的感觉就是很有压倒性的威严，大姐大的架子(年龄问题吗？)。一位坐不定(她有个习惯就是吃饱后不立刻坐下，所以很多时候都是站立着)，外向，阳光型少女，会弹钢琴，还会拉小提琴。好笑的是，每当她笑起时，就很难停下来(难控制)，而且总是选择在吃饭时间发作，所以通常一碗饭能咀嚼啃很久。此外，她还有一点很可爱的地方就是，很喜欢含羞草。当你无意间碰到一位蹲在草地上，用手指触碰着一片一片的含羞草，不必多疑，那一定是她！活像个小孩似的。接着呢是咱家最酷的女生！若想要找个人来吓，玩玩耍，谁都好就是别找她，因为她会镇定地，要么缓缓转过身来看你，要么继续忙她的事情，相信你肯定会失败。我说就算是天塌下来，她会是站在一旁安慰你的那位，别怕，镇定点(幻想着)。她也是家中搞音乐的其中一位，人家可会打鼓哦！还会做蛋糕(重点)，对我这些馋嘴猫来说，是幸福不过的事情。
再来就是人称花妈的朋友。一开始认识她的时候是当我发现她独自一人坐着时，所以就很自然的邀请她坐在我旁边(也不知这哪来的勇气)。加上她与我住在同一栋楼里，然后咱们就这样认识对方了。她简直就是个开心果，整天笑嘻嘻的，她的笑声很有感染力，让人不知不觉也笑了起来。只能说她好好笑。她也是个很好的朋友，有时她与其他朋友出去吃饭，还会不忘打包给我(感动)。生病时还会探望我，有需要时给与帮助(再次被感动)。
还有好多好多独特而友善的朋友，从此展开了人生的不平凡。很喜欢看他们打成一片，即使是不同的人，包含着不同的性格，却能好好相处，融入在笑声中。很侥幸能够认识他们，希望这段情，这笑声会一直维持下去，一直到永远。